
I am NOT a morning person. Never have been. I don't do well on little sleep either. Lack of sleep is one of the hardest parts about having kids for me. Ever since Kate was three months old and started sleeping in her crib, things haven't been good. She is capable of sleeping through the night and has done it a few times, but usually wakes up several times a night. Not to eat. Just because. I used to be able to just give her a binkie and she'd go right back to sleep. She finally started improving, then got even worse. Then things were slowly getting better and she got shots. Things haven't been the greatest since then. She doesn't want to go back to sleep after waking up. I resorted to feeding her or rocking her just so I could get back in bed as soon as possible. She would still wake up several times, so I decided we needed to let her cry it out. She had already learned to fall asleep on her own at bedtime, but it still didn't help her sleep through the night. So we let her cry in the middle of the night. Then that would wake Ada up. I now have to turn on music in Ada's room every time Kate starts crying.
In the meantime, Ada has had sleep woes of her own. She pretty much stopped napping, but I would still give her quiet time during Kate's afternoon nap so I would have a little time to myself. But that ended up being too late in the day because sometimes she would fall asleep. Even if I woke her up soon afterward, she wouldn't go to bed at night. Tyler and I would be just getting into bed and she'd start knocking on her door. No matter what, she wouldn't fall asleep until after 11:00. She would still wake up at the same time in the morning, so she was extra grumpy the next day due to lack of sleep. Thus began the vicious cycle. So I now have to prevent her from napping so she will go to bed at night.
Since I haven't been getting much sleep (and broken sleep at that), I try to nap during the day. I've tried to nap during Ada's quiet time and Kate's afternoon nap, but then Ada will fall asleep. I can't even go there anymore. So I put on shows for Ada during Kate's morning nap. Yesterday, Kate woke up after 40 minutes. Today, Ada started knocking on my door and in the process woke Kate up. No matter what I do, I just can't get a good nap in! Anyway, last night Kate finally slept until after 5:00 without waking up, but what happened? Ada started yelling in the middle of the night that she wanted a CD on. Tyler and I were both startled awake and he went in to help her. But she just wanted Mommy. So I went in and for no reason at all, she suddenly started FREAKING OUT. She was screaming and crying and bucking (I don't know how else to describe it) in her bed. I couldn't do anything to calm her down. I turned on her CD and went back to bed. The screaming didn't stop. I finally went back in and tried everything to get her to calm down. I asked her if she was scared, and just like a switch was flipped, she went silent and then said quietly, "Yeah." I put her back in bed and that was that. She is crazy!
Maybe one day soon the planets will align and both girls will be good AT THE SAME TIME. Until then, I guess I'll have to be my grumpy, unproductive, tired self. Wow, that was long. I'm done complaining.